ouh ok *reread previous post* tat sounds kinda suicidal

dun worry peeps im just being poetic

whateva i posted before this post just means i need a good sleep before continuing wateva i hafta do.

i must be direct next time

I am reaaaaally anxious nowadays .. i just wanna take flight ... runaway far

want peace and quiet .. Im not like im used to be .. Now i just wanna be in a deep slumber and just be quiet. Sleeping, dreaming and never wake up to face the hard reality of life.

Today we had a friendly with some gerls and we lost big tyme hahahaha It was really fun but it gotten abit stressful cuz they kinda take it veeery seriously ... we have only practised once and i dunno we have to play it professionally-like

aahh well ..

dunn wanna do friendly anymore unless we are ready .. its not healthy to lose evrytime .. the team need to be motivated too ... so guys ... lets just practise first b4 going against anyone ya ...

I never been challenged before ... Here I am reading an article about critical thinking (Y_Y)
I never had to think so much ~ my goodness. Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee with my assignment.


huhuhu yup im being overly dramatic ~ im not exactly a genius and but more of a perfectionist. I simply cannot give a bo chap assignment to my lecturer. Im totally admiring my lecturer ( please eh, i admire him as a student only cuz he is so much cooler than the ones that I had before ) and i must give my best.

Another reason why i have to give my best cuz Mr Fong said, He is anal when it comes to marking assignments waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *distresse mode*... how will i survive ??

I can only turn to Allah.

hihi

ive been really tired with work, volunteering and studying .. maannn lets rant about studying .. i realized that Diploma isnt child's play .. its really scary and tiring .. never in my life ~ having to write 2500 words for an assignment. What an eye opener. But im not giving up tho. wat i felt is impossible ~ i will find a way, I am body-abled to do the assignement and im not gonna grumble and sit on my a** all day without even trying. I can say that but I hope i'll follow tru.


Something been bothering me lately and im not sure what ~ my assignment? (definately), my werplace? (uhumm .. i wanna find a new job), My social life ? (maybe...)

Im feeling really restless lately .. maybe because its been a while since ive done any sport ...
I heard that Hasanah Youths are planning to start netball .. tats would be fun (^^) its been a while since ive played sport .. ive got all these nervous energy and i dont know how to waste em'

SO I hope very much that the idea will become a reality (^^)

Cuz i so wanna work smart, play hard and study smart lolz

It is more like im trying to find something to distract me from the stressness of studying fer a while b4 facing it again (^^) im eating alot because of this too. haaaiz.


im sleepy .. will continue ranting tmr.

It went really well and I had a great time helping to pack the qurban meat. It was tiring but seriously the best day of my life.